Tuesday, December 23, 2003

Christmas Shopping 

Well I've just about gotten all my shopping done. Mom , Dad, my two brothers... Who by the way are positively monstrous children LOL, Mandy, Ashley and my dear Sara. I haven't gotten anything yet for Mindy!

I thought about getting her some sexy undies and telling her I would love to see her in it. Something from Victoria Secret. That would do it! A three piece set. And since Mindy is a different size than me the shop girls will know it's for another girl and I'm gay! Another aspect of coming out! Oh hell, I just may say that I'm buying it for my girlfriend!

I bought a deluxe pool cue case for Mandy. She's had her eyes on this one for ages. She's turning me into a nine ball fanatic! I love playing pool and under her tutelage( hmmmm..I'd love to be under her right now!) I'm becoming a pretty good pool player myself.

I got Ashley a DVD burner for her computer that she wanted! I also got her a MAC Cosmetics makeup case with three brushes and eye and lip make up. We're exchanging gifts tonight because she's leaving for home tomorrow! I'm going to miss her !

Mandy is coming over on Christmas Eve and Mindy is coming over Christmas Day. Yeek... I just remembered I can't give Mindy sexy under wear in front of my parents. I'll have to give it to her in secret! Got to get her something else. She loves MAC MV3 Creation fragrance. I'll get that for her as my in front of parents gift!
  • Monday, December 22, 2003

    Working My Ass Off! 

    Sorry I haven't been able to update recently. I have been working a lot of hours at my new job, plus with school and three girlfriends I just haven't had the time to do it!

    I've been on two more dates with Mindy and we are getting on quite well together. I haven't seen Ashley in a while because of our work and school schedules. I miss her! And Mandy has been her crazy self but we haven't gone out together recently.

    This Christmas shopping season is crazy. People are crazy!!! But I'm learning the bookseller business from the ground up. Mary, My boss is teaching me everything about the business.

    Got to go to work! Did anyone miss me! ***POUTS***
  • Wednesday, December 10, 2003

    My Weekend Dates with Mandy, Mindy and Ashley 

    Having a full dating schedule and a new job has kepted me quite busy and unable to tell everything that has happened last week.

    So what happened Kelly on your dates you say. Well, I made out with three different girls on three consecutive nights. Not sex, but kissing and very heavy petting. All three girls and I were quite aggressive in our dry fucking! When I was with each girl I felt like I couldn't or wouldn't want to be with anyone else. Then the next night the same feeling. Am I bad to feel this way. Should I feel guilty about all of this? I don't know.

    And each experience was different. With Mandy it was our bodies entwined in a frenzied grinding into eachother. With Mindy it was delicious kissing and her hands up my sweater fondling my breasts and my hand sliding up her leg into her jeans covered mound. Dry fucking couldn't be any better than this I thought. With Ashley it was an all over body massage that left me delirious and ended with her fingers fucking my ass through my jeans!

    Besides all this there was a pool tournament, shopping with Mindy and a movie party that left me feeling all grown up and my birthday party with all three of my girls behaving themselves.

    So there you have it! It was a wonderful weekend and I hope I have more of them!
  • Celebrity...Britney 


    Britney Spears can't stop the questions about her sexual orientation. Came up again on her Korean tour. Me thinks she protests too much!

    Come on Brit you know you love to kiss girls! Kiss Me!!!!
  • Monday, December 08, 2003

    I start my new job today ! 

    I start my new job at the book store today. I go in for six hours to train. I'm excited!
  • Coming Out to My Parents... 

    I finally came out to my parents. They were already ahead of the curve and knew that I was Bi or Gay. No interest in guys or dating them, new friends picking me up to go out and my gorgeous women screen saver did me in. Kids watch what you put on your screen saver!

    They accepted it and were waiting for me to come out to them! I have cool parents who love me and want the best for me. They want to meet my girlfriends and get to know them which is really neat.

    Sometimes I feel guilty with the way this is turning out. When so many others are having a hard time with friends and family when they come out, I've had a easy time of it. I've lost a very close friend and two other friends. The rest have accepted me as I am.
    I feel so fortunate!
  • Wednesday, December 03, 2003

    Ashley, Mandy, Mindy 

    Well I got three dates this week. On Thursday I'm going with Mandy to a Pool tournament to cheer her on. Then Friday night I have my first date with Mindy. Although we have been friends for years and have hung out, this will be our first date date. Then on Saturday night I'm going on a date with Ashley. She's taking me to the monthly film screening party. I've joined that group and one day will host the screening at my house.

    I still have Sunday open...lol
  • Tuesday, December 02, 2003

    I Got A Job! 

    I'm going to work at a local Bookstore ... with a coffee shop of course... making $6.50 an hour, half price on all coffee shop items, and books at cost!

    I was sitting there in the coffee shop reading a book and she came up to me and asked me if I wanted a job. I said hell ya! I told her I was about to turn 16. She said that I could start on Dec. 8th. She told me that she was having trouble with young people showing up to work, but noticed that I spent alot of time there. So she offered me the position.

    She's losing a great customer but gaining a wonderful employee!

  • Saturday with the Girls 

    I went out with the girls on Saturday afternoon. Sara, Hannah and Mindy. Mindy kept insisting that the two of us should go out together that night. I told her that I had a double date with Ashley and I just couldn't. But she was persistent! At Every opportunity she brought it up or did something.

    At the mall she was trying on Dresses at Gadzooks. She asked me to go fetch a larger size. When I got back and opened the dressing room door she was stark raving naked except for a pair of socks. I let out a scream! She goes "This is what your missing tonight!" with a sheepish grin on her face. I have to say she's sexy and beautiful. Not in the skinny model type but the more rounded type back in the fifties like Sofia Loren!

    I ran out and told Sara about it . She laughed and said "For God's sakes Kelly just go out with her or we're have to go through this all day!"

    So I'm going out with her on Friday night! Now I'm up to dating three girls! My head is spinning!!!
  • Saturday, November 29, 2003

    Mindy and The Email 

    I woke up this morning to find an ecard from Mindy in my email. It was from shecards...A lesbian online card service. The picture was of two women lying in bed in eachothers arms. The note was a highly suggestive. It was about what we could do for and to eachother! I have to admit it got me hot! Then she asked me to give her a chance! At least go out with her on a date alone just one time! I had planned to go out to lunch and shopping with her,Sara and Hannah this afternoon. She said that we can talk about it then!

    Mindy ,with Sara and Hannah, is one of my oldest and closest friends. If I go out with her, how would that change the dynamics of our friendship and of the group?

    I'm glad that I'm going on a double date with Ashley tonight! At least I have an excuse about why I can't go out with Mind !
  • Friday, November 28, 2003

    I'm Not a Lab Rat! 

    Mindy finally broke up with her abusive boyfriend Roger. Good riddance. Mindy now wants to start to explore her bisexuality. She says that I was so brave with coming out to all my friends. Now she wants to experiment. The only trouble is she wants to experiment with me!!! I told her no way... but politely. I told her that she'll have to find someone else for her exploration. We've been friends too long to jeopardize our friendship with eachother.

    Now I have a friend trying to get in bed with me...Help!
  • Thursday, November 27, 2003

    My Sixteenth Birthday Party 

    I was thinking of inviting both Mandy and Ashley to it. But now I don't know. Things are heating up with Ashley and cooling down with Mandy. I never thought I would have these kinds of decisions to make. Never dreamed that little old me would be dating two girls at the same time.

  • Wednesday, November 26, 2003


    Ashley called and wanted to know if I would like to double date with another lesbian couple. I said "another couple?" "That means we're a couple" I asked. She said "Yes, I think we are. I hope we are! What do you say about it?" "Yes, we're a couple!" I said.
  • Tuesday, November 25, 2003

    My Date with Ashley 

    It went great! She took me out to dinner at Outback Steakhouse. We then went to a gallery opening and then to a party. We talk all night about everything. At the party she took me off to a quite corner and we kissed! I mean passionately. She gently rubbed me down below while our tongues danced in eachothers mouths. That was the first time that a girl had touched me like that. I want to be touched like that again. But the night ended too soon. My damn curfew!
  • Sunday, November 16, 2003

    Mandy and Ashley 

    I had a long talk with Mandy about my feelings about girls and dating. She's going off to college next year and agrees with me about keeping our relationship open. We'll play it by ear and see what happens.

    Ashley is looking for a more committed relationship but wants to keep seeing me. I'm going on a date with her next Saturday. We also talk on the phone almost every night.

    So I guess I'll go with the flow and see what happens with the both of them.
  • Wednesday, November 12, 2003

    Sara and Ashley  

    When they took my Dad away in the ambulance, I was so sacred that this was it. That I would never see him again. I started to cry uncontrollably. My best friend Sara was spending the night at my house. She went with me and my family to the hospital and stayed with us. She's always been there for me no matter what happens. She helped to calm me down but I was a nervous wreak. One week I lose an uncle and then this happens to my Dad.

    I was never so scared as I was on this night.

    I had made plans with Ashley for Sunday. She was taking me to a student film shoot. I was going to help out with the project. I asked Sara if she could call her up and tell her that I couldn't make it.

    Sara got a hold of her and told her what had happened to my Dad. She asked Sara how I was taking it. Sara said badly. Ashley told her that she would come on down to be with the both of us if she thought that was all right. Sara knew how I felt about Ashley and said that that would be great if she could come. Sara didn't tell me she was coming.

    An hour later, she shows up at the hospital's emergency rooms waiting room. I was surprised. I ran up to her and hugged her and started to cry. She held me in her arms and gave me a gentle kiss on the cheek. I loved having her there with me. She made me laugh by saying that one of these days we're going to get to go on a date together. I laughed as I cried. She stayed all day Sunday with me, Sara and my brothers.

    How can I not want to be with this girl. She's an angel!
  • My Dad 

    I haven't been online because my Dad had a heart attack on Saturday night. He went in at 9:00pm and was diagnosed as having a mild heart attack.

    On Monday he was taken to the cath lab where they found that his Left Coronary Artery was blocked 80 to 90 percent. They did a angioplasty and put in a stent.

    He's out of the hospital and doing find.

    He was so upset with the death of his brother that he had this heart attack. The Doctor's said that he was lucky that he had a small heart attack now and not a big one later. They said they were glad that it showed up this way.

    My Dad thinks that his big brother was watching over him. Me Too!
  • Thursday, November 06, 2003

    Desiring Ashley 

    My family and I got back from Las Vegas on Thursday morning. I had several messages from Ashley on our phone. I only had one from Mandy. I knew that Mandy was in school, so I called Ashley hoping to catch her in her dorm room. She wasn't there. I left a message on her voicemail hoping for a return call. An hour later she called me back and asked if I had lunch yet. I said no and she said that she would come over to pick me up in 45 minutes. I couldn't wait to see her. We had talked on the phone and instant messaged eachother, but hadn't seen eachother since the pizza parlor.

    I waited a very long 45 minutes and she finally arrived. She was as beautiful as I had thought she would be when I had seen her for the first time with no makeup and in her work clothes. She was gorgeous in a all black outfit, her long black hair falling down around left shoulder and her pale smooth skin wearing a wisp of makeup.

    I knew that this would be the girl who could have me in a wink of an eye. I wanted her too!

    I know your going to say what about Mandy. I'm attracted to Mandy and love going out with her. I love her free spirit and her sense of humor. I care about her. But the attraction I have for Ashley is something else.

    Ashley and I decided to go to a Japanese restaurant that has a lunch sushi special. We sat there drank green tea, ate sushi, talked and just looked into eachothers eyes. I wanted her to kiss me right there in front of everybody. I didn't care. I wanted her that much.

    She's a wonderful conversationalist and we like so many of the same things that we seem so utterly right for eachother. So now I'm attracted to two girls. Ashley and Mandy. Two girls with different personalities and different qualities.

    What I'm I going to do about Mandy? How do I tell her that I want to date another girl too?
  • The Dream 

    I have this recurring dream that started after the death of my Grandmother Elaine last year. I didn't have this dream for awhile. But with the death of my Uncle Go Go , the dream came back to me!

    In this dream I'm walking through a field of tall grass. It starts to rain. It's a warm summer's rain that gently soaks my hair and clothes. Everything is silent except for the sound of the falling rain. I keep walking through the grass and rain, until I come upon a clearing where there is sunshine and no rain. I walk through the final curtain of rain into the clearing. My hair and clothes start to dry leaving only two tracks of tears running down my face. I then see my grandmother sitting on a blanket. I walk over to her.

    She asks me why am I crying. I tell her because she's gone and I love and miss her so much. I lay my head in her lap. She caresses my face and strokes my hair.

    She tells me not to cry and to be happy for her that she's no longer in pain. I try, but the two streams of tears keep running down my face. I ask her how long we can stay here together. She says until my pain goes away.

    We stay there together just listening to the sound of the gentle rain.
  • The Reeling Film Festival 

    The Reeling Film Festival

    For those of you in the Chicago area, tonight is the kick off of The Lesbian and Gay International Film Festival. It's the second oldest lesbian /Gay film festival of it's kind. Check it out. Sounds like a lot of fun. It runs from Nov.6 to the 13th. Hope you can attend.
  • Friday, October 31, 2003

    Ethereal Existence 

    That's how I feel about our lives. We're here for a short time and then we're gone. My uncle died last night. I called him Go Go. When I was two I couldn't say uncle so I called him Go Go. The nick name stuck.

    He's my Dad's older brother. He had kidney cancer 12 years ago and last year he got it again. It kept showing up in his body. This time it was in his pancreas. He had an operation and when he came out of it, his kidney failed and his potassium level shot up. They couldn't stabilize him. His heart kept on stopping and then he was gone. It was suppose to be a simple routine operation that turned tragic. A life ended at 59.

    He was a cool guy that I loved very much. He was a professional poker player who lived in Las Vegas. He taught me how to play the game. I'm very good at it. He didn't have kids of his own. So he always called me his adopted daughter.

    We're leaving for Las Vegas this afternoon to be with his wife Jan.

    Sleep well my sweet Prince....I'll miss you and love you forever!
  • Wednesday, October 29, 2003

    Gothic girls ...Part 2 

    Well , to make a long story short my dad has unwittingly gotten me a date with the Gothic Chick at the pizza buffet. Her name is Ashley. She is a freshman art student in college. She's studying video art. She invited me to a film party after my father asked her about her t-shirt. It was form the Chicago International film festival. My Dad is from Chicago and Ashley is too! He told her I'm interested in filmmaking and entertainment law and the next thing I know she's asking me to go with her to the film screening party! Yeah Dad,I love you!!! My parents don't realize it's a date because I'm going with a girl...one advantage to being a lesbian hehe...So I can't wait till Saturday!!!
  • Tuesday, October 28, 2003

    Gothic Girls 

    Goth girls are so sexy! I have a thing for them. Well I have a thing for a lot of types of girls you must know by now! But goth chicks are hot!

    I'm not into the whole suicide, death and fuck the world thingy . But the look is hot and gets me so hot!

    I went to the pizza buffet with my family and our drink server and plate picker upper was a goth girl. She had long straight black hair and white alabaster skin. She was downplaying her gothness for the job. But I could tell she was a goth. She had that sexy aloof attitude. She asked us if we wanted a special pizza. If we did just ask her and she would get it for us. Hmmm...special pizza! So I asked for a goat cheese, portobella mushroom, shalots, sun dried tomato pizza just to see what she would say. She cracked a smile and said no one had ever asked for that before. They didn't have the ingrediants ,so could I think of something else? Something else? I had her hooked and I wasn't about to let her go! So I said how about a baby bok choy, straw mushrooms,tofu pizza? She laughed and said that wouldn't work either and gave me a big smile. I smiled back into her big brown eyes! My Dad said leave the poor girl alone and let her do her job. I stuck my toung out at my Dad.

    She told me to keep on trying and that she would be back. Yes I'll keep on trying until your mine, I thought!!!

    As she walked away I just looked her over and then she gave me one of those backward over the shoulder glances with her long jet black hair flinging about in a sensual slow motion arc! Now I was hooked!

    As she went about her duties at the other tables, she would keep glancing over to our table trying not to act like she was looking, but she was looking at me as I was looking at her.

    Story interruptis!!! My Mom is bitching at me to get of the computer
  • Saturday, October 25, 2003

    Darryl Hannah , Mandy and the Big Kiss 

    Watching the movie Kill Bill for the second time, I had this strange yearning to see Darryl Hannah naked wearing her eyepatch and a strapon with a great big black dildo. I don't know why. Was it because I was leaning on Mandy and she was gently stroking my leg. But the image of Darryl Hannah just popped into my head. Then later Mandy told me she had to pee and I went with her to the rest room. We went into the last stall and I just grabbed Mandy and gave her a big kiss on the lips. She kissed me back hard and for a very brief moment slipped her tongue into my mouth. This was a more passionate kiss than I normally do!. I missed her for two weeks and just couldn't help myself. We then just stood there wordless and out of breathe with our foreheads pressed together.

  • Friday, October 24, 2003

    About Me! 

    I just added a page about me. I got to run. I have a date with Mandy! Wish me luck!
  • Thursday, October 23, 2003

    Sentence is Over! 

    Tomorrow I'm a free woman again. The parental grounding for the past two weeks is over. I'm going out with Mandy, Sara, Hannah and Mindy. Well the girls want to see a movie. The movie they want to see is ...Kill Bill. So I'm going to see it again with them. I hope that we can stay out of trouble this time! Can't wait for some cuddle time with Mandy!!!!!
  • Wednesday, October 22, 2003

    Kill Bill 

    Stylistically brilliant, an action movie masterpiece, shallow, a mess or a great movie ? Kill Bill is all of these things. I don't buy that this film had to broken up into two movies to be screen. Is this greed at work. Or is this the new marketing strategy after the success of Lord of the Rings. I hope that this is not a new trend. What if Hitchcock broke up Vertigo into two parts? The first half would end with James Stewart in the loony bin. The second part his crazy desire to turn Judy into Madeline. Would it be the same masterpiece? I don't think so. Kill Bill will suffer from this split .

    Is Tarentino a feminist? Kill Bill contains what I think is the single most brilliant statement of male violence against women. In the opening shot we start with a black screen and hear the rapid deep breathing of a woman. Is it the sound of a woman having sex or in distress. It could go both ways. Then we're given the image of a blood splattered and beaten Uma Thurman. A horrible, frightening image. Then we meet Bill. We don't see him. Only hear him. His callus disregard for her and his mocking attitude here stands for all the boyfriends and husbands who beat their girlfriends and wives. It's brilliant. But will the legion of boys and young men who love this film for it's violence get it? I don't think so.

    But it's a mess. I don't think that his non- linear style works as well here as in Pulp Fiction. It feels too choppy. Where is all the great dialogue? It's missing. It makes one think about the contribution of Roger Avery to Tarentino's early films. Kill Bill makes Tarentino look like a bad screenwriter without Avery. I'm sure this will set off a revaluation of Tarentino's career.

    This is a film that is about style over content, with one great moment of content in it. Let's Hope that Kill Bill vol. 2 has more moments like the opening of Kill Bill vol.1
  • Yeek! 

    Went to the dentist today because I had two cavities! I can't wait till friday night because I come off my grounding. I want my life back! I was so much more interesting before this happened.
  • Monday, October 20, 2003

    Giving Up Tennis 

    I went to the Doctor's today and found out the pain in my elbow is from a combination tennis and golf elbow. The only cure for it is to quite what I'm doing. That means I have to give up tennis and being on the highschool tennis team. I hate to do it but I can't stand the pain anymore. So I'll have to find another outlet for my competitive urges.
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